DizzyWeb

Well, the old journal was getting, uh, old. And since I'm not doing anything artsy lately, I'll just stick with wishing everyone a happy new year!

Ok. So. Haven't done anything artsy in years, but having the same journal on your page for over a year (or was it two?) is just silly.

Right. I'm tired... Yesterday, I started work at 8 in the morning, like I always do. I work at an ISP, we have out own optic fiber network in various places in the country. I'm one of the engineers of that network. Yesterday, a client had to have his connection installed. And our contractor was having some issues.

So, somewhere between 14:00 and 15:00 my boss dropped me off there, cause he had to go somewhere else. *Everything* went wrong... the duct that was supposed to be there in the ground, was nowhere to be found, the original ducts in the ground for the neighbor wasn't anywhere to be found either. Had to call another contractor who does combination work for new buildings, who had put the ducts in the ground for us... they had to send a guy over, cause everything they told me didn't seem to add up.

Guy came over, had a hard time remembering what happened two months ago. Turned out, the orange ducts we supplied... were lost. So, instead of a 16mm duct, they put in a 32mm duct, different color, different type, no labels, nothing on their revision. Oh, and the measurements our contractor took when they installed the neighbor, they were off by only 1,5 meters.

Later on some other stuff what was supposed to have happened earlier, hadn't been done either... so when we finally wanted to blow the fiber cable, it didn't work. A tube had to be connected somewhere along the route. Guess what? Measurements of the little box those ducts were in? Off by only 6 meters.

At 20:00 or so they were finally ready to blow the cable... and it wouldn't work. Water in the duct, some other unknown reason for it not to work, total mess. And when we finally had it nearly in... it broke. Had to start over. Then, an hour later, finally the cable was in. Fibers were welded, measurements were made... the fibers were... 100 meters long!? Cable busted. We had to start over again.

So, in the end, I started my day at 8:00 in the morning on Friday... and I went home at 1:00 on Saturday. 16 hour workday.

Guess who had terribly sore feet? Damn right I had.

So, last saturdaynight I got invited to the beach by vegistie. Which was a lot of fun. I think the group was supposed to be bigger, but in the end there was just the four of us. One guy I had seen before, the other... well, I think I've seen him And vegistie obviously.

So, on our way to Scheveningen. Had a lot of troubles with the trains last sunday. Horrible. Anyway, the beach on sunday. Lots of sun, cold seawater and good company. Did I mention lots of sun?

I got horribly burnt. My legs and feet are burnt. Like, to a crisp. They're glow-in-the-dark. I had a bedlight from below my blankets last night.

Ouch. It hurrrrrrrrrrts!

Just want to get rid of the old journal.

Apparently a few people tried to beat each other to death in front of my door. At least 10 police agents, at least 4 arrests. Nice. Gotta love the neighborhood.

The time I can love or hate. With all my heart. Nothing in between. And I hate it when I'm all alone.

I don't know what's wrong... but first I start losing my friends, because of my relationship. Then I lose my girlfriend... and then... I keep on losing friends. Meh, depressing times, don't mind me. Everything seems to be going in the wrong direction lately and I just can't seem to get a grip on things.

Want my life back. No, better, I want a life. People want to be noticed, want to be above average.... I'm always noticed and I want to be average for once. Want to be able to do what everyone does. Without feeling like I do, without being looked down upon.

*sigh* I hate being alone... but I really can't stand being alone around Christmas and all.